|Karate...fighting with a twist|
I'm no great fan of karate being taught only as a way of fighting, I truly believe there are better, more efficient, ways to damage people, but then, maybe that's just the psychopath in me coming through; however, if you're going to waste your life fighting other people, and facing the consequences of doing that, you might as well decide from the outset that you're going to walk away afterwards, and that means the other guy never does!
Karate training is budo, and as such is neither just about fighting or just about revealing your true nature. Time in the dojo ought to develop in you a strong sense of balance. Discovering if you have the strength of character to devote yourself to that task, is a fight a great many karateka today are reluctant to engage in; preferring instead to dwell on the physical techniques alone, and how 'mastery' of them projects an image of something they just don't have as a karateka: authenticity!
Karate is not complicated, it's honest. Overt displays of toughness and aggression are windows to the inadequacy that lies within, for truly powerful karateka never show their strength. There is nothing noble in conflict, no concept of fairness or of compassion...just a desire to win! Wrap your karate up in 'tough-guy' notions of defeating other people, and you have already lost the fight karate was encouraging you to have.
For all the time you've spend training...are you honest enough with yourself to pick the right fight?